Finding my Way!

 Here I am  sitting in Starbucks parking lot drinking my second cuppa coffee today from the coffee shop… I had to take this moment to just stop and reflect!

So I know the season and moment in time on my journey is temporary… But truly it has felt very long… the desire to be a mom and a wife at 30 and now almost 31 Is so so strong and my heart longs for it so so much! But in my longing I am trying to figure out how to put that into being dependent upon  the Lord... how to put the great need to be “busy” “needed” “someone’s mom” into practical real life practice that would glorify the Lord and grow my relationship with Jesus.. not just fulfill my own selfish desires! The Lord has given me the sweetest blessing in my dog 🐶 Maggie who I love and often joke that I do too much for... but I know at the end of the day that although she is such a blessing I am not building a spiritual God filled legacy with her and that is what I want and so desperately desire! So in a sense this is a call for prayer in writing out there for all to see and me to be reminded of later on that.... As we are told to ask for wisdom I am asking for two things Lord, that I may grow big in you and that I would have the opportunity to build a Godly legacy with a family! Nothing is too big for your Lord Jesus!! I trust you!! 

A Season of Blessings!

Wow! It has felt like forever since I have blogged! But it is more than Time for me to stop and truly praise the Lord for all that he has done in this past season! I am absolutely in a place that I never thought would be possible! Truly I feel like I’m living in a season of answered prayer! As of November 2019 and I moved into my very first place that I can call my own! Truly it is a place that I love! A place even amongst COVID-19 God knew this was the exact place I needed to be! I am attending a church that I love and I am a part of a small group that continues to pour into me and gives me the opportunity to pour into others!

 My friendships are so blessed and rich even with the social distancing and the fact that I really have not physically seen my seen my dear friends in months!

This home that I get to live in is so rich and full of the presence of God it allows me the opportunity to be close to the school where I work to my church, to my friends to my family and has truly been handpicked by God!

The Lord has also blessed me with the most incredible dog a girl could ask for I feel like with having Maggie as my best gal pal I truly understand what it means when they say that dog is man’s best friend! She is everything that I could’ve dreamed of the best snuggler, she’s so loyal and just a blast to spend my days with! She is truly a lover and I do not say this lightly but it is truly a way that God so incredibly and tangibly shares His love with me through this tiny animal who is created by Him!

I truly sense that having this space of my own has really healed a lot of the hurts with my parents I truly feel like we have a connection that is better than ever! I was reminded that even of this today as my mom stopped by for a few hours and we were able just to sip on coffee and catch up a little bit!

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Hahahahaha how ironic just another piece of the puzzle and learning how to trust God for the unknown for the unpredictable and for this brand new piece of territory! I really should not be surprised as trusting has been the name of my game! An area that I feel like over the course of these last 10 years truly has really been about trusting the Lord for the unknown! But as you can read and see in my other blog posts along my journey God has always been so incredibly faithful he has always brought peace where there needs to be peace he’s always right answers even if it has not been the answer is that I thought it would be he has always answered my prayers in the very best way! So even though it feels unknown in uncharted territory and scary I know that God is absolutely going to leave me so I choose to trust even in this brand new!

P.S. .... as we live through this COVID-19 of 2020 this year has absolutely looked different than I could have ever anticipated, seeing that I have top from home for the past three months… I have hardly interacted with anybody physically as we have been encouraged in the state of Ohio to stay home! Restaurants sporting events and even Church have all been shut down! We definitely are living in Times like no other! But even with the unknown I know the Lord has us! So my prayer is that the Lord would continue to soften the hearts of the American people that he would bring people to himself because greater than the need is for a cure for this virus or for things to go back to normal our greatest need is our need to turn to Jesus!